the bevolution

“Cautionary tales from a life lived twice”, yeah? Hard to write about as they’re happening, these tales of mine. However, I see that I have more than 20 posts in my drafts folder – some going back as far as 2023 – and I’m going to see if there is anything worthwhile posting there. Maybe with added commentary.

Funny story first. I keep thinking about who I want to be in this. That’s a real stall. Am I writing in present, past or future tense? How would a mixture work? From 1st party or 3rd party perspective? Should I be me? Or the version of me I want to be?

The joke’s on you, dear reader. I am me and the version of me I want to be. I’m not saying I’m perfect. (I felt a belly deep rumble as my fingers even pressed the keys that made those words – kind of an Lol without the ol!) I’m living my life with intention, ambition and purpose. I am stretching, pushing, learning and teaching and trying and choosing. I am also exhausted and stressed and making things work. This is how life goes, ebbs and flows. I ride the wave with a smile on my face this time. And let’s be honest here, medicated. This way is better. Three cheers for the Bevolution!

P.S. My boss made a comment about me having a lack of confidence the other day and it has been on my mind ever since. I’ve always been accused of having too much confidence, not having enough doesn’t occur to me often. I mean, I allow myself to question if I can do something and consider the consequences of failure, but that’s just the step before I figure out how to do what I want to do. This was about respect. I want to be the boss of my home, not perceived as the babysitter while dad’s at work. He didn’t understand that. We also considered the possibility that what he calls a lack of confidence is a lack of understanding how to be a team player. I don’t know how this all works yet. I’m confident I’ll figure it out. On with the show…